The power

When you blame others that you suffer, you giving power to the suffering. If, when you blame none, but notice where it come from, you give power to happiness. - Kumara
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Tic-toc...

Tic-toc... Tic-toc...
Sounds of time in my mind,
No matter how busy we are,
Time still...
Tic-toc... Tic-toc...

Perhaps time don't know what is time,
But it knows its job is important,
Perhaps we know who we are,
But we do not know what job is important,
That is why we claim we are busy people.

Stop and listen to the working time,
Its important work done so beautifully.
It is simple yet beautiful.

Everybody know time,
But it not as famous as a superstars,
And not rich as billionaires,
Everybody care about time,
But no one care about its good job.

Value the time,
Time is value...

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Gaga

I seldom listen to Lady Gaga songs,
But she hits me when I watch her mentoring the contestants in American Idol.

The words and the message hits me,
Deep deep,

The strong word for me is,
When you sing it, mean it...
And put drama in it.

It tells me when you do something,
Know what you doing and mean it.
When you doing something,
Doing it truthfully from your heart.
Don't worry about the result,
Because 'something' will lead you to the end...

The message isn't new or revolutionary,
But here is her message:

Don't give up on your dreams,
Be true to yourself,
Forget about your insecurities,
Hold true to your dreams no matter what anyone says,
Embrace your inner freak,

She is neither good nor evil,
But she is herself.
She is hundred percent be on what she plays/doing.
Because she is honest to herself,
And content with herself,
She doesn't need others' approval,
Because she accepts herself,
And the whole world accepts her.

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Space

If you have a space in your heart, you can make your mate beautiful.

note: space is the absence of ego, anger, greed, hatred, selfish...

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Please Remember

Please remember that we have awareness,
And remember that we no need to find it somewhere else,
Please remember, when we see a mountain, 
We are away from mountain.

Please remember that we have loving kindness,
And remember that we no need to find it somewhere else,
Please remember, every movement we move, 
We are seeking for happiness...

Please remember that we have compassion,
And remember that we no need to find it somewhere else,
Please remember, that every time we want to get rid,
Is to get rid of suffering...

Please remember that we have joy,
And remember that we no need to find it somewhere else,
Please remember, that rejoicing in the happiness and virtues are joyfulness...

Please remember that we have equanimity,
And remember that we no need to find it somewhere else
Please remember, that everything are no distinguish,
Like a pen has no definition of long or short...

Please remember that obstacle is not problem,
Problem is we forget to remember that we have awareness, lovingkindness, compassion, joy and equanimity...

Please remember we have it all in us for 24 hours,
It's like we no need to find a torchlight to lead us when we are under the sunlight.

Please remember....

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115

It's been an hour...
I'm at page 115,
An hour later,
Still at page 115,
Why oh Why?

The page starts with...
"Eternity is in love with creation of time",
This is what William Blake wrote,
Still at page 115,
Without reading, but starring...
Why oh Why?

Page 115,

Remind me all artists that I love,

Audrey Kawasaki, Tran Nguyen, etc...

And remind me all the artists and the writer,

I respected most,

Andy Warhol, Seraphine, Antoine, WenZhen etc...

Stop at 115, and 

Still at 115...

Again, ready to read page 115,
A second moment,
Leads me to write a poem, called 115
Why oh Why?

The power of...
115...

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A Thought

Have you had a moment,
A moment that your thought is so silent?
You knock the thought and it never respond?
And you are on your own?

Have you had a moment,
A moment that your thought is so resistance?
You ask {her}, but it just a negative reply?
And you are on your own?

Have you had a moment,
A moment that your thought is so loud?
So loud that you ask {her} to stop,
And it won't stop?

Do you agree that your thought is the closest soul mate?
I'm not sure though...
I think that another mate hidden between me and the thought,
A mate that didn't shown up constantly,
A mate that is shy, but very intelligent?

Well.....
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Ability

Papa bird and Mama bird are looking for a place,
A place for their future children to be born,
"Ah Hah! This is the place!"
Papa told Mama....

Papa and Mama finding materials,
Finding materials to build their nest.
Not a luxurious nest...
But a comfort and save nest for their children...

I'm not sure when was Mama bird laying the eggs,
But I know she is in the nest for almost everyday,
From day to night, till rain and thunder,
She is still protecting her children,
And waiting for her children to be hatched.

This is the moment!
The moment of two little tiny bird are born,
Papa bird come visit his children,
Papa and Mama are so happy....

Well, there are a cat below their nest,
But Papa and Mama seem not so afraid of the cat,
Because they know that they have protection,
A protection from us.

Papa and Mama take turns to find food for their children,
Even though, they know we are protecting them,
It seem that they are alert every moment,
Because their love one need love from them.

I feel that they are a good Papa and Mama in the world,
Not because of they feed their children and give them shelter,
Because they know and trust their children's ability.

The ability has come!
Papa and Mama sense it!
Papa said,
"Son! Please remember.You have the ability.
The ability that leads you to freedom and happiness.."

The sons was afraid,
Mama said,
"Spread your wings!
You have a strong and beautiful wings..."
But Mama seem worried,
And I know how Mama feels,
As I know Mama is a Worrier and Papa is a Warrior...

Papa said,
"Please know your ability,
And please remember that.
You no need to find it somewhere else.
You've got it inside your heart."

Mama said,
"Please remember your very first taking off and fly,
It's like happiness are come to you..
You are free to fly up and down, left and right,
And that is your ability..."

Papa added,
"All obstacles is not a problem,
Problem is you forget your ability,
And please remember this until you die,
Because it leads you to freedom and happiness."

Both sons spread their wings,
Up up they fly,
And accompany by their parents,

From the day onwards,
I never see them coming back to the nest,
I am happy and have a gratitude to the Bird family,
Because they give me a profound teaching.

And I added few words here,
Don't abuse your child or your own ability,
By ordering your child, do not fly up and down, left and right,
Only FLY straight...
You will destroy you and your child ability....

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Poetry

The creator

Besides transfer merit, breathing in and out, be at the moment (mindfulness) , can help someone in the trouble. It create good energy for the moment/environment.

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The present says

"Come and sit close with me", the present says.

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A day with expectation

The bus has arrived,
I happily up to the bus and find a good place for myself,
And can't wait to reach to the place where the retreat are.

I am the helper with a joyful heart {at first},
Until I reach the place where the kitchen are,
My eyes when big and my jaw drop,
Not because it's beautiful,
But because of...
Experiencing like, after earthquake and tsunami.

I am not complaining, but it's out of my expectation,
Dust and webs everywhere,
It's just like Kitchen Nightmare show,
A nightmare to Gordon Ramsey...

Hmm... Well, I think I was lucky to see a web in the fridge,
{Not everybody does}
It has no time to sleep, but to clean the kitchen,
To clean the area where we use,
And the Buddha and the Dewa in the kitchen too...

Our work didn't run smooth on the day two,
With a little conflict with our senior,
Participants complaining food not enough,
But this is out of my decision

My heart when to unsafisfatoriness,
A lot of 'why-s' in my heart,
Complaining to my mom in front of Dewa,
I looked at the Dewa and seek forgiveness to him,
And continue complaining to my mom.
A little doubt in my mind,
Because of complaining and seeking forgiveness...
Such a thing...

We had unwelcomed guests,
They had arrived with an empty stomach,
Food is what they want,
We insist not to give them {monkeys},
And a minute later...
The dustbins when upside down,
Rubbish and shits are everywhere,
And accompany with madness too,
What to do?
Clean is the way...

A little smoother on day three,
Not because the situation go better,
But because we know how to handle the situation,
Complaining and gossiping become lesser,
And the unwelcome guest become welcome guests,
We serve food to them, and we hide the dustbins,

This time, we reserved more food for them {monkeys},
We served early before they come,
They are happy to see the food,
And eating alertly and happily...

The participant are enjoying watching them,
And create stories and crack jokes,
And I can feel both parties are enjoying the moment...

Time flies, and end has come,
Time to go back home,
Bad situation, but good experience,
I learn a lot and understand myself a little more,
And bring back good teaching with a tough one...

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Seeking Support

Seeking support from friends and family is like having your people gathered around at your deathbed. It's nice, but when the ship sails, all they can do is stand on the dock waving goodbye.

~Steven Pressfield

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Abundance is trouble making. Enough is just nice.

There are abundance air (oxygen) around us, but our breath can't take as many as possible for keeping for the future use. Everytime we breath in and out, remember sufficient amount is just nice. Abundance is trouble making.

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Risk Training

Like an athlete who trains for game day, you need to train yourself to take a risk. You'll need practice, the right support, and a dose of courage.

We're not trained to take risk, but we are trained to hold meetings, stop talking when we're told to, and stay the course. We're told to look for security and to silence our creativity if it speaks too loudly. Initiative hides from cultures and companies that ask us to fit in.

Starting thrives on our ability to play, to humor ourselves, to look at things in a unique way. It's not easy, but that's why it's worth the trouble.

~Seth Godin

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