It's Start

It's start.

I don't know when is the exact time started,

but it has started. 

It start because I have no choice,

It start because my soul told me so,

It start because I am at the T-junction.

Our life is like a game,

And a game has rules,

And it has time limit,

And it has game over too.

I am not a good gamer,

That is why I always 'game over',

But this time I won't let it game over,

because this game only allow me to play once.

Maybe my friends say,

I am a foolish or Why want to stretch myself? 

Maybe to them, this is an unnecessary game to play,

but for me this is the game to understand the negative 'thing' hidden in myself.

Yes! to understand but not to get rid of the negative 'thing' hidden in myself.

I know why I always 'game over',

Because I always to get rid of something,

To get rid of something negative. 

And wanted to have a perfect 'thing'.

And this is what I call foolish. 

Remember I mentioned earlier,

I am at the T-junction,

And the T-junction with a U-turn,

Turn left or right is not a problem,

The problem is when before the game started,

I make a U-turn.

This it the toughest road I've ever been,

This is the road that I need to make decision,

This is the road that I need to let go,

This is the road that I need to manage my time,

This is the road that I need to care,

This is the longest road I've ever drive,

Although the distance only 5km away,

This is the road that makes me write a lot of poems,

A poems that remind me to keep on  going . 

Why I say this is the toughest road?

Because this road will be demolished itself within time limit,

I need to move fast, 

I need to be alert,

I need to  complete every single task given in order to move on, 

And I has no time to rest.

This road remind me to walk with an open hands,

Just like a Muslim prayer who prays to God,

Ready to accept all things - positive and negative, 

And this is a chance,

A chance to learn and to understand.

And I aware that previously,

I walk with a hand just like the ultraman, 

Crossing with grabbed hands.

And this has stop all the chances.

Chances to learn and to understand.

I don't say I am a champion now,

but atleast I never loose the game. 

and it enter another level,

Enter another level without letting me know,

but sooner or later you will know you are at another level,

Becareful, it will bring you back to the lower level, if you failed...

And remember, it always seems impossible until it is done,
Because providence be with you every moment,
And providence will be protecting you every moment if you allowed.

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