It's Start

It's start.

I don't know when is the exact time started,

but it has started. 

It start because I have no choice,

It start because my soul told me so,

It start because I am at the T-junction.

Our life is like a game,

And a game has rules,

And it has time limit,

And it has game over too.

I am not a good gamer,

That is why I always 'game over',

But this time I won't let it game over,

because this game only allow me to play once.

Maybe my friends say,

I am a foolish or Why want to stretch myself? 

Maybe to them, this is an unnecessary game to play,

but for me this is the game to understand the negative 'thing' hidden in myself.

Yes! to understand but not to get rid of the negative 'thing' hidden in myself.

I know why I always 'game over',

Because I always to get rid of something,

To get rid of something negative. 

And wanted to have a perfect 'thing'.

And this is what I call foolish. 

Remember I mentioned earlier,

I am at the T-junction,

And the T-junction with a U-turn,

Turn left or right is not a problem,

The problem is when before the game started,

I make a U-turn.

This it the toughest road I've ever been,

This is the road that I need to make decision,

This is the road that I need to let go,

This is the road that I need to manage my time,

This is the road that I need to care,

This is the longest road I've ever drive,

Although the distance only 5km away,

This is the road that makes me write a lot of poems,

A poems that remind me to keep on  going . 

Why I say this is the toughest road?

Because this road will be demolished itself within time limit,

I need to move fast, 

I need to be alert,

I need to  complete every single task given in order to move on, 

And I has no time to rest.

This road remind me to walk with an open hands,

Just like a Muslim prayer who prays to God,

Ready to accept all things - positive and negative, 

And this is a chance,

A chance to learn and to understand.

And I aware that previously,

I walk with a hand just like the ultraman, 

Crossing with grabbed hands.

And this has stop all the chances.

Chances to learn and to understand.

I don't say I am a champion now,

but atleast I never loose the game. 

and it enter another level,

Enter another level without letting me know,

but sooner or later you will know you are at another level,

Becareful, it will bring you back to the lower level, if you failed...

And remember, it always seems impossible until it is done,
Because providence be with you every moment,
And providence will be protecting you every moment if you allowed.

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A drummer with a big heart

A little boy who knows nothing,

But to plays a drum,

He has a passion to be a drummer,

Not only a drummer,

But to share with others what he had learn.

He knows that he will be a great drummer,

Not because he likes the drum,

But because he knows the sound of the drum can bring joy to people.

He plays in the morning,

He plays in the afternoon,

He plays in the evening,

He plays at night, 

He plays when he old,

He plays when he sick,

He plays every moment.

I can hear the sound of the drum,

He plays beautifully,

He made me feel so good,

Stop and listen to the sound of the drum,

He plays so well,

It touches my heart,

Not only my heart,

But everyone's heart.

When you feel lonely, worries, etc...

Stop and listen,

The drummer will play a song for you,

All your worries will be carried away by the sound of the drum,

This is the miracle of a drummer with a big heart,

And this is the best song I've ever listen.

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Watch it Carefully...

Watch it carefully, 

You thought it is still,

But it is not. 

Watch the movement,

And you will aware the little movement,

The movement that leads you somewhere,

The somewhere is the path,

The path is the cycle. 

Watch it carefully,

And remember to aware the movement,

And when you aware the movement,

A few second you will see the cycle,

Be careful! 

Aware of the cycle,

Without adding any other colour to the new movement, 

You will be apart from the cycle, 

You are no longer follow the cycle, 

And the cycle is fading away.

You no need to make an afford to stop the movement,

the movement will disappearing itself.

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There are no scraps of men

My Childhood

Breakthrough

Doesn't matter if is not knowing,

Doesn't matter if it is right or wrong,

Doesn't matter if it is good or bad. 

Doesn't matter if you want to start the project,

Doesn't matter if you want to stop the project. 

What matter is..

To have a good thought to start the project,

To have a good thought to stop the project.

Remember,

There are tonnes of reasons to stop you when you start your project,

There are tonnes of reasons not to stop you when you stop your project,

Aware of that right and wrong, 

Aware of the good and bad. 

Do not create an endless stream of worries, anxiety, fears...etc

When you continue doing till the end. It's a breakthrough. 

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Ooo...Mr. Brain

Oo..Mr. Brain is rebel now.
He don't want to work.
And Ms. Rational start to worry.
But Mr. Brain don't care.

Ms. Rational start to mumbling to Mr. Brain,
If you don't work now, you will be very busy in the end of the day. You will be exhausted!

Mr. Brain said, I don't care!
And I am the one who feel exhausted.
What should I do now?

I am in the office, but doing nothing of the office work. Ooo.....

It feel like no direction in heart. Nothing I can do.

Please help!


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A flower that doesn't know how to bloom

I always wanted to be a beautiful flower that makes everybody happy in my own way. But it seem I am a flower that doesn't know how to bloom.

Maybe, I am surrounded with a code. A code that seem no solution for it. All my dear friends are following it. I am following it now too and I can't imagine for the next 10 years I am to be like this...

'In the morning,
Still driving my 10-year-old car to same old office,

In the office,
Using the latest computer, but still designing same old design,

On the phone,
Using the latest iPhone, but talking to same old client,

At home,
Still sleep on a same old bed with same old person.'

It seem the code has no meaning in life other than survival. I am surrounded by the code and it seem real to me other than make a difference to myself and others etc.

Please let me know if you have any other formula to break this code.

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Abundance

The world abundance of food, but not healthy,
The world abundance of buildings, but not shelter
The world abundance of clothes, but not beauty,
The world abundance of money, but unhappy,
The world abundance of securities, but fear,
The world abundance of facilities, but busy.

Something wrong what I saw.

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Primary

My primary goal in this life is gain peacefulness, happiness and free from fear, worried and mentally suffering. Other material necessary needs are only secondary.

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The Best Advice

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. - Steven Paul Jobs

The best advice I can give is to get as much input as you can, and then don't follow any of it. - David Horvath (UglyDolls)
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Repeat the Sentence

If you are angry, and you wanted your mate know. Tell him/her "I am angry" and repeat the sentence until he/she really knows what you mean. Only that sentence without react or shout. You will feel less anger and your mate will understand your feeling.

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Permission

Give yourself permission to be creative. Permission to try something new, permission to fail, permission to embarrass yourself, permission to have crazy ideas.

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Accept Wholeheartedly

Accept wholeheartedly is a blessing.

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Dislike or Hate

Naturally, if you seem dislike on the 'thing'. The 'thing' will naturally disappear. Maybe it because the 'thing' feels it benefits nothing to you anymore instead of dislike it. But in our taught, if you become to know that someone hates or dislike you. You might be the someone's enemy and might not disappear from him/her sight forever. Why? We are mis-educate or mislead somewhere along our life.

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