A day with expectation

The bus has arrived,
I happily up to the bus and find a good place for myself,
And can't wait to reach to the place where the retreat are.

I am the helper with a joyful heart {at first},
Until I reach the place where the kitchen are,
My eyes when big and my jaw drop,
Not because it's beautiful,
But because of...
Experiencing like, after earthquake and tsunami.

I am not complaining, but it's out of my expectation,
Dust and webs everywhere,
It's just like Kitchen Nightmare show,
A nightmare to Gordon Ramsey...

Hmm... Well, I think I was lucky to see a web in the fridge,
{Not everybody does}
It has no time to sleep, but to clean the kitchen,
To clean the area where we use,
And the Buddha and the Dewa in the kitchen too...

Our work didn't run smooth on the day two,
With a little conflict with our senior,
Participants complaining food not enough,
But this is out of my decision

My heart when to unsafisfatoriness,
A lot of 'why-s' in my heart,
Complaining to my mom in front of Dewa,
I looked at the Dewa and seek forgiveness to him,
And continue complaining to my mom.
A little doubt in my mind,
Because of complaining and seeking forgiveness...
Such a thing...

We had unwelcomed guests,
They had arrived with an empty stomach,
Food is what they want,
We insist not to give them {monkeys},
And a minute later...
The dustbins when upside down,
Rubbish and shits are everywhere,
And accompany with madness too,
What to do?
Clean is the way...

A little smoother on day three,
Not because the situation go better,
But because we know how to handle the situation,
Complaining and gossiping become lesser,
And the unwelcome guest become welcome guests,
We serve food to them, and we hide the dustbins,

This time, we reserved more food for them {monkeys},
We served early before they come,
They are happy to see the food,
And eating alertly and happily...

The participant are enjoying watching them,
And create stories and crack jokes,
And I can feel both parties are enjoying the moment...

Time flies, and end has come,
Time to go back home,
Bad situation, but good experience,
I learn a lot and understand myself a little more,
And bring back good teaching with a tough one...

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Seeking Support

Seeking support from friends and family is like having your people gathered around at your deathbed. It's nice, but when the ship sails, all they can do is stand on the dock waving goodbye.

~Steven Pressfield

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Abundance is trouble making. Enough is just nice.

There are abundance air (oxygen) around us, but our breath can't take as many as possible for keeping for the future use. Everytime we breath in and out, remember sufficient amount is just nice. Abundance is trouble making.

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Risk Training

Like an athlete who trains for game day, you need to train yourself to take a risk. You'll need practice, the right support, and a dose of courage.

We're not trained to take risk, but we are trained to hold meetings, stop talking when we're told to, and stay the course. We're told to look for security and to silence our creativity if it speaks too loudly. Initiative hides from cultures and companies that ask us to fit in.

Starting thrives on our ability to play, to humor ourselves, to look at things in a unique way. It's not easy, but that's why it's worth the trouble.

~Seth Godin

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